![]() ![]() I saw her for the first time in like 20 years, and we had lunch. I eventually got married, and so did she. MY stopping thinking about her, getting back out there with a social life, taking chances, kissing someone else, etc., that was part of the cure. MY thinking about her, obsessing, was part of the disease. So, I had to stop thinking about her and get on with my life. Not her (she wasn't even around any more). ![]() Someone told me one time that the only one who could get me over her was me. What I needed to come home for, I can't even remember now! Today, over and over in my mind, I think that if we'd woken up in each others arms that morning, we'd still be together today! Talk about a missed opportunity! Anyhow, in the middle of the night, I had to leave to get back home. I don't know exactly how it happened, but we ended up having sex (I don't say "making love" because we were broken up, after all). After we broke up, I went to visit her one time. "Cursed missed opportunities" is self-explanatory, but here's an example. The first line invites the listener to come and feel what I feel, get in my "boat" for a moment. I was so co-dependent on her, I "could not stop that" behavior. Or, if she'd asked me, I would have moved in with her and made her home my home too. But every time I visited her, I felt like this time I was going to come back and take her home. I visited her as often as I could, even breaking the car down and having to ask my parents to come get me one time. After our breakup, we still saw each other, but she moved to a town 80 miles away. It was a waste of time, because there was no explanation. "Closing walls and ticking clocks" reminds me of time I spent sitting alone trying to figure this all out. Like I said before, she didn't leave me for someone else. I could not stop that you now know singing Anywhere, any time, any place, no matter who I'm with, she is. (BTW, if your date asks you what you're thinking, just say "politics" LOL.) And since I can't control when I'm going to think about her, She is the tiger in my head that can't be tamed. "Shoot an apple off my head" is kind of like the dread on a date of passing one of the places that we shared and going right back to the past in my head, thus ruining the date.Īlso, I know anyone in a relationship has had one of these moments: we're just driving along going to wherever, and my date says, "What are you thinking?" Oh God, I'm in trouble now! I'm thinking about "her" but I can't say her name to my date! That is the trouble that can't be named. The places and the memories had to remain "things unsaid", but I felt them. However, no way was I going to be able to express them. ![]() When I started dating again, whenever we'd drive past places my ex and I went, I'd get these.feelings. Luckily I got over that (for the most part). I told this girl I still loved my ex.and she said it was ok, but I never saw her again. I was "begging and pleading" for myself to get aroused, to perform, but I ultimately had to beg and plead forgiveness. This is so embarrassing to remember! We were alone, clothes off, then the lights went out and I couldn't get aroused. My first opportunity to have sex after we broke up, I couldn't do it. I would pray to God for some relief from being in love with someone who didn't love me anymore.Ģ. During the day I could distract myself, feel normal, not think about her.but at night, when I'd turn out the lights to go to sleep, not being beside her made me feel such anguish! It all came crashing down on me in the lonesome darkness of my bedroom. Finally I was able to love again, but my First Love will always be deep in my heart.ġ. Over time it got better clocks kept ticking, years went by. Day after day, month after month, I harbored this ill-begotten hope. The problem with that is, it left me hoping that we could still get back together. But eventually we broke up, and she left me.not for another person, but just to go on with life. We were SO in love, it was like the world kept spinning but we were still, staring in each other's eyes. This song reminds me of my lost First True Love. ![]()
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